I've Got Nuthin'

Not even proper spelling. These Tuesdays really sneak up on me. I have no life and time flies. Yet here I am, sitting in front of another Word file, wondering what in the Sam Hill am I doing?! I’ve got 34 days left in a self-imposed 90 day start up phase. I’ve told myself that If I can get going and be consistent for at least two weeks, then I’ve accomplished my 90-day goals. The goals being: start drawing and keep at it every day after that, get feedback on those drawings, complete and publish 1 game and start another game.

I guess if I fail at this, I need to figure something else out to do with my life. Either way, I have to have my act together before my dad passes away. I know that’s morbid but I’m stuck at home, taking care of him until that inevitable day. So, I kind of have time to do something with my life. That time being the three breaks a day I get from watching him. Not complaining, it’s just what my life is at the moment. It’s just I’m so relieved to take a break from that emotionally draining task, I end up not having much energy to do much else.

Anyway, this post took a dour turn. They can’t all be winners! And I’m not just talking about posts. Wink. Let’s see if I can keep better track of my time and mental energy. Then come back next week with a better outlook and maybe some progress. Thank you for checking this out and I appreciate it a ton. If you’ve been here before then just know that you made this old man’s heart a bit happier and have made me smile. Take care and see you next week!

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