Let's Try for a Happy One

I’ve been reading some mental health books. I’m learning that through my childhood I developed a negative voice. It has stopped me from being myself and pursuing what I want to do. It stresses me out if I don’t do something perfect the first time. It makes me feel worthless. It tells me something’s not worth pursuing if I can’t get it right away. Turns out being raised by emotionally neglectful, emotionally immature and self-involved parents isn’t a recipe for success.

But what in the name of Heinrich Kley does this have to do with my goals to learn how to draw?! I strongly believe that it’s all related. I am of the mind that working through my issues that developed the negative will help me draw more. Drawing more will help me work through my issues and quiet down that negative voice. And so on and so forth until, boom! Happy, healthy, complete human being.

So, maybe I don’t need a therapist. Maybe I just need to do the work. Why not? I’m worth it. At this point, I am changing my mindset. Drawing isn’t something I have to do and get done. Drawing is something that I choose to do because it’s fun and extremely beneficial to my well-being. No matter what the outcome of the day is, I can enjoy the process.

Hey! This one wasn't a total downer like the last few posts. I feel like we made some real progress this week. Anyway, thank you so much for taking the time to read my keyboarding click-clacks. I appreciate it a lot. Thanks for clicking by! See you next week! 

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